Morning Meditation: Empyrean & Aether

The Stream of "I am"

My meditation advises more exposition in and apparently on the first person.

It is hard to believe it is Friday already, not that days mean much here in the Lab. I use the phrase "it's been a whirlwind" to describe our status all the time, but I wonder how much I am leading our situation by doing so. We're busy, we're peaceful, we're slammed, we suffer from doubts daily and we laugh and giggle a lot in spite of it all.

In the past two years I've experienced a deepening of emotion, a clarity. I posit that our diet, our blurring of the lines between life and work, and our decision to dedicate ourselves to assisting in the creation of New Detroit have cleaned up my lenses a bit. The well-meaning "mucous" built up between the ego and experiential reality has thinned out and I'm more fully able to "feel" what is going on inside and out. The idea or feeling of "depth" has been a recurring theme in dreams and exploratory meditation of late. My experiences all have a greater depth than they have before.

Of course, this depth could be an aspect of my adaptation to and preparation for fatherhood. I can actually sense the pheromones Angela is kicking off redirecting the flow of information travelling across the synapses in my brain. The fact that I am experiencing such a subtle chemical reaction could probably use a post of its own. It suppose it speaks in answer to the oft asked question, where does 20+ years of meditation get you? I'll immediately admit to an almost complete lack of understanding as to how and why. But the how and why can wait, when it comes down to it, I'm more of an ironic, spiritual-Stephen Colbert kind of guy anyway. It truly is all in the gut.

At that primal/intuitive/spiritual gut level there is so much going on! More that the pheromones and other chemicals, I have direct knowledge of this being we're currently assisting in the transition from "there" to "here." I would like to also say that I have communication with him or her, but for the most part, it has been a one way stream directed towards Angela and I. That stream of "I am" is strong and getting stronger. In my gut I feel this being actually making a way for itself and, in a very real sense, shifting reality to do so. I sense that certain assistance and people have come into our lives in direct response to the will of this being. That's very abstract, but let's just say that this being is actively making a way for itself, as we all have and do. Sadly, I think that many of us have forgotten that that's what we are doing everyday.

So with all of that said, it seems that you have stepped into my stream of "I am" and while you're here I'll tell you my will. It is my will that we all, every last one of us, remember that we can make a way for ourselves, right here, right now. There is no limit to what we can do and more importantly than that, there need not be conformity to any one thing or way. This construct can handle as many different manifestations as we can imagine, but that's musings for another stream.

So, I'm not going to say it's been a whirlwind any more, but rather a steady stream. I think that will help quite a bit!

In Health, Joy and Liberation,
Gregg

Pizza Parties and Primordial Soup

Working late tonight with AK, which is cool. We're finishing up this huge project for the school and listening to good music, eating sushi, scanning documents, hyperlinking and bookmarking. Fun stuff. We'll get out of here once we burn it to CD and verify that all the links work. AK's been working on this since September, and it's the culmination of a ton of work by everyone on staff. This is just one phase of a bigger project though, and it's not over 'till the guvment sings. It's wonderful to work for a place that you truly care about. You're willing to put in extra because you love it and the people you work with.

On other news, this weekend is going to be friggin' huge! A bunch of the Chicago kids are coming in and staying at the Lab. We're having a huge pizza party and sleep over in honor of one of our bestest of freinds. We're pulling out all the stops with individual pizzas, three different kinds of sauce and every topping you can imagine. Chuckie Cheese ain't got nothin' on us!

The past two weeks have been pretty intense with finishing up this project at school, spending a great deal of time in prayer and puja, cooking and eating phenomenal food, teaching yoga, popin' and lockin' to some new music, spending time with friends and family (family is sacred and it must be protected), and simply falling in love with the world around me. There is so much joy out there. It is as if every day a new veil is pulled aside to reveal a greater and more awe inspiring world.

There is one phenomenon that has stuck me quite intensely in the last few weeks. During my puja, prayer and meditation I've been expressing a great deal of gratitude towards everyone around me. Typically I will bring to mind the person I am grateful for and simply ponder them. Recently my thoughts of this person will turn towards their parents and then to their grandparents. This process continues from generation to generation. I then experience some radical shifts in consciousness until I am seeing prehistoric type scenes. This then goes into a very abstract biological mode dealing with the "primordial soup" and then the stars. Very similar images have been going through my head when I pray over my food. The workers, the crops, the earth, then molecular make up, primordial soup and stars. It all goes back to the campfire of the infinite I suppose. I am so thankful these days. I've survived a horrible injustice and my appreciation of life, love and possibility is powerful and pungent.